i had some chicken that i sort of nibbled on this morning as far as breakfast went, and 2 shortbread cookies from the Boss on the bus.  lunch was a lovely chicken sandwich, rotisserie chicken, spinach, tomatoes, provolone and cheddar cheese on 12 grain bread with black bean soup and some chips.  dinner was leftovers from yesterday.  three chocolate chip cookies.  a swiss roll at the parent's house.  still grazing some, but not as bad.  just had to get it in and down. 

Grazing...

not sure what yesterday was about, but i have my thoughts on the matter.  regardless, it wasn't a bad day, just a constant day, of a sort. 

i had leftovers for breakfast on Wednesday (which this covers), five garlic-romano wings and a yogurt.  also a spoonful of peanut butter.  for a snack (timing wise, see the Journey for details) i had the last half a salsa-provolone chicken breast on one piece of 12 grain bread.  for lunch i had a catfish sandwich (sub) and a few fries.  for dinner i had meat loaf, smashed potatoes and cabbage, with cookies for dessert.  i had an apple before i passed out.  not a horrible day, but i seemed to be hungry throughout the day.  goes back to some original training, avoid the H.A.L.T.s (hungry, angry, lonely, tired).

Coordinates Locking...

Monday, April 23, 2018

breakfast: peanut butter 12 grain toast, banana, milk
lunch: black beans & rice, corn bread
dinner: garlic-romano wings, potato soup, broccoli-cauliflower with cheese, corn bread
tiny lemon pie for dessert.

gathering

well, today was good.  it could have been better, but at least i didn't go out and buy trouble today, so that's good.

breakfast:  a two egg mess, which included one small shredded potato, onions and peppers and a super blend of veggies (including kohlrabi, brussel sprouts, bean sprouts, carrots, kale and some kind of cabbage) and a mushroom, with a piece of toast with sugar free jam.  oh, cheese on the mess.

lunch was a piece of salsa chicken breast and a slice of bread and a yogurt.

dinner was soft tacos with a variety of meats and pico de galla and guacamole and queso.  i also had a half chicken sandwich and a small bowl of potato soup later in the evening. 

i had three cookies today, which was the 'could have been better' part of the day. but there you go.  yum all around.

Time Now.

okay, back on the grind.  not going to keep neglecting this, because it is neglecting myself, and that's not cool in a minuscule amount even. 

for breakfast today i had two eggs, the last of my salisbury steak (one) and grits.  for lunch, one and a half slices of pizza and a piece of fish.  for dinner, Spanish-style black beans and rice, chicken wings and corn bread.  just finished a yogurt for my snack.  i feel okay, i'm not bloaty full and i am ready to shut it down.  thank you, Father.

The Journey

day 365, day one approaches...

i'm justifying nothing today.  i'm leaving a list behind, and then i'm getting back to personal responsibility.  it's the only way forward momentum continues. 

today i ate scrambled eggs, sausage links, rye toast and hash browns.  i ate a huge slice of lemon meringue pie and a filet 0 fish sandwich.  i ate a breakfast cookie.  i've had pizza and cake.  i'm pretty sure that's the full list.  i ate things i wanted but not in huge amounts.  i was responsibly irresponsible, and that's something new for me, but it is the truth.  now, i have to get back to being responsible and disciplined and do away with the 'irresponsible' thing.  it's time.  thanks for a year down, a half century in and whatever days remain.  i am blessed.

coulda been worse....

didn't do as bad as i thought i might today.  breakfast was an omelet and toast, the omelet was chicken, spinach, peppers, onions and cheese.  for lunch i had Indian buffet in Niles, so i know there was chicken and broccoli and rice, and some other vegetables, and some na'an bread.  for dinner i had two chicken fajitas, with onions and peppers and spinach and cheese, kinda like my omelet.  again, i thought i would have done away with myself today, but it's okay so far.  we'll see what tomorrow brings when it gets here.  laters...

Impending Damage Control

Zoikes. 

well, it was going to happen, and it has, and i have to show some character now. 

i'll have character.  i will not consume this cake. 

but i'm going to partake.  not today though.

breakfast today: strawberry/banana yogurt with blueberries added, 12 grain toast with peanut butter

brunch: a sausage egg and cheese soft taco and a hash brown

lunch: a blue cheese bacon burger and a cup of wedding soup

dinner: potato soup, maybe a grilled cheese sandwich?  simple anyway.

i'm thankful and blessed, and will remember that today.

fuck this absence...

okay, for breakfast today i had a two egg omelet with leftover broccoli, cauliflower and mashed potatoes in the filling, with some cheese, and a piece of 12 grain toast with sugar free jam.  for lunch, i had chicken salad and a small potato salad from Giant Eagle, and i had an orange.  for dinner i had a green salad consisting of spinach, green onions, grape tomatoes, dried berries, blue cheese, boiled egg and chopped baked chicken.  i also had a chicken sandwich with tomato spinach and cheese.  i'm going to have a yogurt and that's about it for the night.  sorry for my bullshit.

(The Journey)

what happened?

man, i was on it for a minute, then it all went south somehow...maybe the details of the weekend just derailed me, i don't know.  no good excuses, that's for sure. 
anyway, today i had yogurt with blueberries mixed in and peanut butter toast for breakfast, i had six garlic parm wing dings and a chicken pastalillo for lunch and i had a perch salad (just perch atop a green salad) and potato soup for dinner.  probably going to have ice cream for dessert.  that's all for today folks

de-caffienated

2 days without coffee...no sir, i don't like it. 
but things change.  i can try anything, and learn from experience if it's for me or not.  one thing for sure, i am good with changing having all my urine-producing meds at the start of the day.  THAT change is doing me some good, i reckon. 

today:
breakfast - strawberry yogurt and peanut butter toast
lunch - 2 slices of white pizza, soup and a side salad
dinner - fish, zucchini and mac & cheese.

apple pie tentative dessert. 
yow. 

changing things

back to working on it with more gusto, i suppose.  breakfast today was oatmeal with dried berries and a blueberry yogurt.  breakfast on weekdays is going to be a much lighter affair before i leave home, as even 'small larger' (does that make sense?) meals tend to have too great an impact on me.  anyway, lunch was 2 fish tacos from Long John Silvers, still working on giving up beef and pork.  dinner was Chinese, chicken and garlic sauce, egg rolls and hot and sour soup.  just had grapes for my snack. 

where's the beef?

man, wendy's used to have the best commercials.  

so, i'm giving up beef and pork for now.  it's time.  need to start working harder on some gout resolution.  plus, i've known for a while that the diet has to modify as i get older.  just goes with being black in america, i guess...

anway, today i had a piece of bread with peanut butter and a cup of yogurt.  that was breakfast.  for lunch, i had a salad and a chicken philly wrap from the food truck.  the wrap, not my salad.  for dinner i had two chicken salad melts, open face, and a can of chicken gumbo soup.  i've had a muffin for dessert.  i feel good enough, but the morning will tell the tale.  

change gonna come...

sugar-free banana pudding pictured...it was horrible, but it was sugar free, except the wafers that is.

anyway, i change gears starting tomorrow.  going to start dropping some of the intake, volume-wise as well as content.  more on those developments later.  meanwhile...

breakfast:  sausage, eggs and toast
lunch: the Nexus soup
dinner: chicken, ribs, dirty rice and mixed greens
dessert is pictured.

had a sugar free ice cream bar and half an apple as well today.  not as bad as it could have been. 

the Journey