end o' July

got nothing picture-wise this evening, but that's okay.  today was one of those border days, to be honest.  in a mood, but still pushing.  only thing i know to do. 

breakfast today was meatloaf, eggs and toast, lunch was fish tacos from LJS (tuesday dollar fish tacos, lawd...) and dinner was a half chicken club sandwich, small salad and soup.  had some ice cream and a donut also.  so, that's the itinerary.  want some pie, but i've had enough junk for the day.  out. 

weekend ending

soon begins the work week, soon begins responsibility.  i don't mind.  i did manage some different things this past weekend, and i'm still looking forward to the work day. 

but that's for the Journey, I reckon.

today's menu:
breakfast was one piece of multigrain bread with peanut butter and a cup of milk.
brunch/lunch was country fried steak, home fries, eggs and a piece of rye toast.
dinner was catfish and perch, cabbage and a baked potato. 
dutch apple pie and a scoop of vanilla for dessert.
i am full, i'm sleepy and i have to second-journal so i can get ready for the shut down.  it's been a blessed week for me, and a peaceful enough weekend, for which i'm grateful. 

interesting...

...but anyway...

someone's been checking up on me here, and i can only say 'thank you' whomever you might be. sorry for the inconsistencies, but thank you for being my conscience over the past several months. 

yesterday, hmmm...well, it was peanut butter toast for breakfast, and a chicken salad sandwich, chips, grapes and a snack cake for lunch, and i had fish, cup of chili, mashed potatoes and gravy and a salad for dinner.  the fish dinner wasn't that great, to be honest...

this morning i had an omelet and toast for breakfast, i had fish, baked potato, soup, salad and broccoli for lunch, and a small serving of alfredo for dinner, with ice cream for dessert.  not bad at all, and i'm thankful for all of it. 

Thursday, July 26th

boy, was that a hard edit.  anyway, hey, how are you?  today, i started with a piece of whole wheat toast with peanut butter on it, then a half slice of meat loaf and milk.  i had a meat loaf sandwich for lunch, with some chips, a fudge round and a flavored water, i'm pretty sure.  for dinner i had two burritos, with chicken and steak, spinach, onions, jalapenos and green peppers and black beans and rice.  i had a potato soup with them and some flavored soda.  i feel tired right now, but that's not unusual.  i am grateful for provisions.  that's it for today.

7-25-18

this morning, 430 or so, i had two eggs scrambled with peppers, onion, spinach and cheese, with bacon on the side.  about 9am i had half a chicken sandwich, some chips and a fudge round (little debbie's).  ate the other half sandwich and the rest of the chips with a brownie on my way back to work, one pm.  for dinner, meat loaf and alfredo.  don't feel much like cooking.  that's the menu for today. 

let's get this right...

just had to remove a posting that was meant for the Journey, so here's the real Dining Experience.

for breakfast, half a stromboli.  for lunch, half a southwest steak and cheese chipotle wrap from Subway. for dinner, meat loaf, mashed potatoes and salad. ate a Nutty Bar, some chips and fruit.  that's it.  

Sunday Repast

it's a thoughtful day, and I didn't even try not to eat as i desired today, though i didn't go as far as i could have gone. 

breakfast was country fried steak with eggs, hash browns and rye toast, gravy over everything but the toast.  i ate part of the potatoes, one of two pieces of toast.  i had a donut and a cookie at the meeting.  for dinner, i had half a stromboli...HALF a stromboli, didn't even know such a thing was possible, and salad with bleu cheese dressing.  just finished ice cream for dessert.  i am pretty okay with it.  back to the conscious eating tomorrow. 

So Bad At This...

the light is horrible on this picture, but i am posting it as i made it for my mother on Friday, part of my dad's birthday dinner. 

i miss a lot of posts here, and i don't really think it's deliberate, nor is it completely arbitrary.  i am just not as invested here as i should be.  not really a food poster, and i am not one to try to impress anyone with what i am doing.  the purpose of this activity is to log my eating, and i guess that's still not something i am naturally inclined to do.  a huge explanation that says the obvious, i know.

saturday for breakfast, i had a sweet potato pancake, bacon, eggs and milk.  for lunch, i stopped at Popeyes, had a breast and two wings, mashed potatoes and green beans and a biscuit.  for dinner, i had my own alfredo from the other day, made with chicken, broccoli and imitation crab, over pasta, and a side salad.

after my lead, i ate a bowl of cereal.  in the course of the day, i had two hostess-style cupcakes and a pack of snack crackers. not as bad as it could be, by any stretch. 

now, on with the new day. 

better directions

not sure why i didn't update yesterday, but i'm not going to just skip completely. 

the changes are coming along okay, by God's grace.  i'm eating less, and i'm doing more.  i can't say 100 percent the depression is lifting, but i can say the emotional weight is not as heavy, and so i am able to function in thought and feeling and not just reaction.  to that effect:

breakfast yesterday was really breaking fast, and i had eggs scrambled with diced ham and salami and cheese, and grits.  lunch was a sandwich (smoked chicken on whole wheat with cheese, spinach, tomato and mayo), some chips, an orange and a personal sized pie.  dinner was a personal pizza made at home, sausage/pepperoni, and a bowl of chicken corn chowder.  ice cream for dessert.  the between stuff has significantly lessened. i'm starting to feel more like myself again. 

going to update The Journey real quick, and then to work. 

better direction

what would we call it?  a better day?  that sounds good enough for now.  it was a better day.  because i realized i have been sabotaging out of a reiterated grief, and it's time to stop.  so i took a cake away that i really didn't need here, and i got to eating with a better purpose than i had been prior. 

so, breakfast yesterday:  an omelet, 3 eggs, spinach, turkey, white cheddar, diced tomato, and 2 biscuits with honey.  cup of milk.  lunch was a half turkey sandwich with cheese on whole wheat bread.  dinner was 2 salmon croquettes, a sweet potato mash (sweet potatoes boiled and fork-whipped, with a tiny bit of sugar, nutmeg, butter, a dollop of coffee creamer and marshmallows), and cauliflower with cheddar.  ice cream for dessert.  had some popcorn as a snack earlier in the day.  that was for Sunday, July the 15th, 2018.  now it's time to get on with life. 

the Journey

Resume

Starting again, slightly different perspective. But yesterday's menu was...

Breakfast: honey-nut Cheerios
Lunch: chicken, spinach and tomato sandwich on 12 grain, chips and cherries.
Dinner: steak spinach salad with 2 grilled wings.
Had snack crackers and a pack of Oreos, and ice cream ended the night.

That is all.

Precipice...

so the plan, starting tomorrow morning, is simplicity itself.  i have to eat responsibly, which means a minimum of carbs, an elimination of fried foods, a maximizing of poultry, fish and vegetables.  six days a week, eat responsibly, get active.  one day a week, have at it.  i don't know for sure if this is going to be effective but i know something has to change, and i must accept some discipline if change is to take place. 

today, i had home fries and scrambled eggs with cheese for breakfast.  i had two burgers and a hot dog, and some elbow macaroni goulash, and cake for lunch at the meeting pot luck.  i had steak, cauliflower soup and the last of the potato salad for dinner, and i had ice cream and cake for dessert.  i am about to shut this biz down for the night, and i'm going to get started when i wake up in the morning.  that's it for the night, folks. 

the Journey

Hot as Blazes...

my sincerest apologies, wherever apropos.  i've been essentially on auto-pilot, just getting through these hot days.  but back on track, because i'm in need of some self-discipline for real right now. 

today, breakfast was an egg hash, two eggs and cheese scrambled with a small potato cubed and fried with onion.  lunch was a hot dog and a hamburger and dinner was a western rib, two wings, both off the grill, with potato salad and cabbage.  had a danish for dessert.  i've been feeling fat lately, eating and lazy are not a good combination.  i'm needing some encouragement to get my ass back to the gym, but regardless of whether it comes or not, i've got to do better than this.  okay, that's where that's at for now. 

...for July 1st

i was so on the go yesterday, and i was so humid, i didn't even think to update here.  not because i ate so poorly, though i could have done much better, just chilled as best i could.  but if i can get on the computer and fuck around on FB for a day, on Tumblr for most of a day, then i can update. 

ate much more than i should have yesterday, i can say honestly.  breakfast was a pancake, eggs and sausage.  lunch was a mini white pizza, a small salad and a piece of foccacia bread.  dinner was one bacon cheeseburger and soup.  had some chips throughout the day, just nibbling.  drank plenty of water, but i need to increase my water intake, decrease the junk and the carbs.  too hot for all that bullshit. 

The Journey