...let's not make a mistake here. the issue is not about losing weight, though that is one of the peripheral goals. when i went to Dr. Steyn's office and clocked in at 381, i knew it was time for some changes. because i had been eating as if i didn't have diabetes, as if i wasn't a compulsive overeater, a bulimic, a man who has struggled with his eating disorder for decades. i was eating like someone who hadn't lost a ton of weight, who knew how to eat responsibly. i was eating as a man who was depressed, lonely, afraid of a future with no love in his life, not really sure that life was worth living, missing his woman, missing his child(ren), missing active, engaged friendship. that's who i've been for half a year, since Syd's graduation.
talking about it has helped...some. depending on who i've talked to. but talk is not the action that change requires. DOING something CHANGES something.
for breakfast today, i had two fried eggs and a slice of 12 grain toast with peach jam. for lunch, i had the rest of the meat loaf from dinner, collard greens and a square of corn bread. for dinner, i had garlic Parmesan wings and a salad comprised of spring greens including spinach, apple, cherry tomatoes, mushrooms, a boiled egg and Parmesan cheese, with a roasted red pepper dressing. again, i've not logged the caloric or carbohydrate content, because i've eaten and jumped back under the comforter. i will get better with that. there we go.
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