Negligence...

it starts innocently enough.

just living life, and in motion constantly. 

easier to grab something quick and cheap, especially when the cash is toxically low.  easier, quicker. 

tired and busy, details, breakfast can be on point, dinner is easy enough, but lunch on the move is not good.  it can be done correctly, of course.  but that takes time, and tired is significant.  mentally more than physically, but one leads strangely to the other. 

then, there's a banana pudding on your horizon. 

i've missed several days.  i can sum up most of it easily.  i've skipped breakfast twice.  lunch on previous days has been either dollar burrito and tostada at TB or wings and a pastallilo.  so, there you go.  opens the door for a banana pudding. 

i'm going to log now, for today, because i got to get my shit back on track for real.  saw some good progress in the fitting of clothes today, want to keep moving in that direction. 

so, first meal, i guess you'd call it, was a banana and a boiled egg, which was about 10am when i was about to leave to get the chicken and cake for the anniversary meeting today.

then, at the anniversary, i had a small helping of lasagna, a chicken breast, taco salad and meatballs in red sauce.  i had more taco salad while i was cleaning after the meeting.  when i got home, putting things away, i had two large tablespoons of banana pudding (you had to know it factored in somewhere, right?), then for dinner i had greens and meatballs.  i am full, i'm sleepy and i'm going to take fast acting insulin tomorrow to get my sugar right, and get back on a real food plan. 

but it was a brief hiatus.  the TB isn't as bad as it sounds, it's just an open door that doesn't need to be open.  i have to watch my grazing habits, because that's what kills me.  but that was today.  now i'm going to sleep.  thank you, Father.